faith

nathaniel and shaelyn at a folly wedding

naked baby! he covered himself up!
ready for church


i'll have to admit that waking up this morning i wasn't too sure of how i would feel. today is carson's 4th birthday and having nathaniel here hasn't lessened the pain of losing carson - not that i thought it would - i just am surprised how much the pain hasn't been lessened.


when i got up with nathaniel at 5 this morning, i was most grateful for him and the love i have for him. and i was most grateful for the love i have for carson and the lessons he taught me through his pregnancy and through his death. he's definately made me a better mom for the turtle tot. so today i am most grateful for:

• patience and reflection
• faith
• nathaniel
• 3 poops at 5am!
• david
• sam and ben's arrival - although very early - the happy outcome. 2 months in the nicu is ahead of them, but in advance, grateful that they will be well taken care of.
• nicole and eric's faith and determination to add more to love into their family.
• miss faye - i couldn't have imagined or dreamed someone better to take care of my boy when i'm at work.
• having the summer to spend with nathaniel - to love on him and smooch on him and nap with him and play with him.
• nathaniel's smiles.
• an almost giggle this morning when the outfit didn't fit and i started laughing.
• david planning for us to go to magnolia gardens today as a family to play.
• you, for being supportive and loving us always in all ways.