friends

• a very productive and exciting week!
• visiting with old friends at the beach for 2 days last week and playing with their little ones.
• the condo they left to us friday night which allowed for a nice walk to dinner and a great beach walk back to the condo. spending time away from the house with david so no projects other than just hanging out with each other. we watched 'borat' - holy crap - we just kept saying, ' i didn't know you could do that!' south carolina was portrayed so lovely. we're not all redneck bigots, i swear. and i'm grateful for that!
• a saturday workday on the room and getting lots and lots done.
• sunday at the pool and dinner at basil with key lime martinis. yum.
• an all day spent on a deserted beach on a quiet island with nothing but us, friends and a lot of sun and a little quart of lemoncello all to myself. the best way to spend memorial day ever. this is my life!
• an spontaneous dinner that night with big d and shelbs. laughing at dinner until i snorted!
• focus on the room and getting the ceiling up in the last 2 days. not much left to go until i'm enjoying a glass of wine in front of my new fireplace!
• david feeling better each day and actually well enough to go for the boys' weekend to savannah with dave, jay, derron and chris. don't even want any details about that! just want him to come home safe.
• mom's xrays coming back clear and that she's ok.
• michelle's adventure beginning tomorrow. how incredibly she is embracing this and teaching us all to go for it - whatever our 'it' is. . .
• craig for being the man he is to support her and let her go without drama. with him just being him. and offering a safe place before she leaves and when she returns to be herself in whatever form that takes as she evolves through her life. they are my model couple. what love and courage they have. and i love to say that 'i was right! he does love you michelle!' so many years ago.
• kevin and his news that i may or may not know about yet! holy cow. how much i want to say about that but the words aren't formed yet so i'll wait. best not to force them until they're ready. i'm overwhelmed with . . . . . . . . . 'bigness' for him.
• michelle bryant and her new outlook - finally seeing in herself what is so beautifully apparant to those who love her. david and i so appreciate her and the time she's been in our lives.
• dean's amazing adventure and his 'coming into his own' - i was always a little . . . ok a lot intimidated by him, but reading his glog, i just know he's just 'there' - what a gift.
• eric and nicole payne and david and i are connected in a way a parent should never be and reading his glog fills me with more hope than i've had in a long time. nicole's comment to him one day this week made me well up with tears. they are so tender with each other and that's so where we need to be through this healing process. . . . . . is it a process when you're never actually 'healed'? can there be a process if there's no end? and by the way - there's never a 'through' either. there's just always healing. so i guess there is a process. this is my brain in full tilt - which brings me to
• LEXAPRO - keeps me calm and in feeling. and in movement and in my process. just without the edge that was there for so so long.
• chandler for finally saying to me - 'being in this much pain is not honoring carson. you can be happy and still be a good mom to him.' thank you. i didn't believe you but i didn't have the strength to fight you on it so i went with it. i'm glad you knew better than me. and i'm glad you cared enough to say what i know was scary for you to say.
• cindy for always always always honoring me as a mom. for always always saying the right thing or sending the right card or gift or thought. always. i am so honored to have you in my life. now, if only we could talk matt into moving back south. . . . . .
• that my dad takes care of himself when he needs to by not pushing himself when his heart 'goes out'. i updated my glog, dad! thanks for asking. it's nice that you get to see a little about me that i don't have to say. i love you.
• my dad for teaching me basics of woodworking so that i can really do a lot in this new room - from caulking to nailing to sanding to staining and painting (with a mask on) - i'm proud of the whole team effort we've had on this project and that we've done it with minimal negative emotions! david only wanted to throw the nail gun once last night and i only 'f-ing gd'd' once tonight. that's teamwork!
• my yummy organic spagetti tonight fixed by david while i finished caulking and a dinner on the couch because we can't see the table. nice.
• an upcoming weekend full of piccolo spoleto events and christine kane at angel oak. i'm so stoked (do people say that anymore?). art, music, poetry readings, food, tourists. it's a charleston heaven weekend!
• my plan to finish 'shut up and sing' this weekend. it was a little overwhelming to watch in one sitting. grateful for FREE SPEECH, CHOICES IN THE NEXT ELECTION, CHANGES ON THE PLANET and the SAFE RETURN OF THE TROOPS SOON.
• you, my little piccolo, you!